1, 2, 3...........................4

I'm counting to 4.

Do you know why? Because in approximately nine months (if everything goes as planned) that is how many children we will have and I will need to count them all to keep them all straight. Yep. I'm pregnant. Yes, again. No. really, I am. And, Yes. We are happy!

You could say I am in shock. Disbelief. Yes, we wanted one more baby, but we didn't think it would happen so soon! I have just had one cycle since having Clara. With Lilah and Clara it took several months to get pregnant with them. My cycles were irregular and it took time. When I wrote a blog several weeks back about Kevin being deployed to Mobile, Alabama, you may remember me talking about being upset that we may have a limited time to try for a baby. Well, I guess I don't have to worry about that, do I? Everything happens for a reason.

After having two....yes two negative pregnancy tests and being late on my period by about a week, I just figured it was my body playing funny tricks on me again. After a week of a missed period, I retook the test for the third time. Positive. I didn't believe it! Seriously? With the three others, I had a positive test before I even missed my period! This is just crazy!

I didn't tell Kevin right away. I had grand plans to tell him in our anniversary journal the following weekend. Yes, I had to keep my little secret to myself and it was not fun. I wanted to share the joy with him. I wanted to hug him. I wanted to be excited. When I awoke the following morning, I had an email from Kevin. He told me he had had a dream that I was pregnant. I gasped when I read it. How did he know? Talk about crazy. That's when I knew we were still on the same wavelength.

A few days later, I had some bleeding and I found myself upset. Stressed. A mess. I told Kevin I was pregnant and bleeding. He was a bit confused since I had told him I had had negative tests! I have had 1st trimester bleeding with 2/3 of my pregnancies and all have resulted in healthy babies, but every time I bleed it scares me. I had some bloodwork done which revealed healthy numbers indicating a healthy pregnancy, though, until I see that little heart flickering away, I won't believe it.

I am scheduled for an ultrasound next week when I will be 7+ weeks pregnant. We're in shock. Definitely unexpected.....but so very wanted! We've just started telling people and it is starting to feel real. We're starting to get excited! It's hard to believe we're adding another bundle to our beautiful crew! I know the girls will be so very excited. I can't wait for this to be real for them!

So.......here we go! Jumping into another high risk pregnancy with a hopefully very healthy baby in the end!